Category: A Year of Miracle Writing

Lesson 129: Beyond this world is the world I want.

The ego’s gravitational pull on us is strong. This is why A Course in Miracles is so long … and so repetitive. It says the same thing over and over again, using different words and examples. It has to, because we are so tethered and dedicated to this ego world that it seems strange – crazy, even – to consider wanting something else, especially something as seemingly nebulous as God’s realm.

The Course speaks the truth, however – there really is nothing in the world that will truly satisfy us. The ego keeps offering up alternatives – wealth, power, possessions, relationships, jobs, homes, exotic vacations. It’s all a fantasy. We truly could have everything we want in this world – everything the ego tells us we should want, at least – and we would still find it all fleeting and impermanent.

We store up our earthly goods in bank accounts and investments these days and not in barns like the old days, but they still rot away and disappear at some point.

Continue reading “AYoMW: May 8, 2020 — Connect with your inner nag”

Lesson 128:  The world I see holds nothing that I want.

As a Southern Baptist child, I was raised constantly hearing the slogan: “This world is not my home.”

While A Course in Miracles would agree with that sentiment, it would not agree with the particular construction of the concept as practiced in the religion of my youth. You see, we would declare that we were strangers in this strange land, but the place we called our home was simply a more glorified version of the same world, except we all lived in mansions just off of streets of gold.

The social and class systems of my inherited religion’s heaven were the same as the egoic social and class systems here on earth. There were neighborhoods in this heavenly realm that you could aspire to if you lived a good earthly life – even as a stranger in a strange land. If you lived by all the Bible’s precepts and kept your nose clean, you could enter the gated heaven’s most elegant gated communities. If you didn’t do you best here, you might end up in heaven’s suburbs, but you were careful to avoid heaven’s slums.

Continue reading “AYoMW: May 7, 2020 — Don’t let this world grab your sweet ass”

Lesson 127: There is no love but God’s.

Back when Donald Trump was running for the highest office in the US, I was watching Marianne Williamson’s then-weekly talks on A Course in Miracles. Her book, A Return to Love, had primed me years ago for the Course‘s ideas but I was really beginning to dig into the book and workbook during this time and was absorbing all I could from teachers of the Course such as her and Ken Wapnick.

Her talks were given to an unsurprisingly liberal audience that filled a church in New York City each week to hear her. She talked about the election a lot in those days and after Trump managed to enter the White House by the electoral college, she began, in earnest, to use him as a teaching tool for the Course.

Everyone, including Williamson, was dismayed at what had happened in the election and many were grappling with their feelings about the turn of events and their personal feelings about the man who had taken over the office. Some were very worried, of course, and still others could not get over their visceral hatred for Trump.

Williamson, who repeats herself a lot in these talks – but still is questioned about the same old things in the Q&A portion – said the same thing over the course of many of her talks after the election. She talked about how much God loved Trump. Perhaps she did this to get the predictable gasp from the audience, but I think her constant mentioning of this idea – that God loves someone we personally find reprehensible – as a way to reinforce today’s lesson: There is no love but God’s.

Continue reading “AYoMW: May 6, 2020 — Yes, God even loves those you love to hate”

Lesson 126: All that I give is given to myself.

In the Manual for Teachers section of A Course in Miracles, we’re told: “The teacher of God is generous out of Self-interest.”

Which is a great jumping-off point for those who criticize the Course as mumbo-jumbo spiritual bypass, but they neglect the next sentence:  “This does not refer, however, to the self of which the world speaks. The teacher of God does not want anything he cannot give away, because he realizes it would be valueless to him by definition.”

Why does the teacher of God not want anything they can’t give away? Because those who understand that giver and receiver are the same – and that there’s really only one of us here – knows that whatever can be given away will ultimately return to the giver. Perhaps not in the same form – but it will return.

Think of a time when you have been genuinely loving or generous to another person. How did it make you feel? Pretty good, probably. That feeling we receive when we give is proof that giving and receiving are the same. Works in the opposite direction, too. When we’ve been mean or hateful to others, we feel badly. Our egos tell us we’re justified in our hatred and fear, but we feel so hateful and fearful afterward. Nobody, no matter what they tell you, feels good after hating on others. What they’re feeling is the ego’s love of revenge and specialness.

Continue reading “AYoMW: May 5, 2020 — The sweet madness of generosity”

Lesson 125: In quiet I receive God’s Word today.

As someone who suffers from tinnitus, my world is never silent. I use a white noise machine at night to cancel out the noise in my head so I can sleep. A quiet room is torture for me because it simply increases the level of screeching that already exists inside my own head.

I went to the doctor about it several years ago and got the big medical shrug. They don’t know what caused it (probably loud concerts I attended as a teen and young adult) and they have no cure for it.

“Suck it up, buttercup,” could have been written on the prescription pad, since that was basically their conclusion.

As a result, meditation is difficult for me. I can’t sit quietly anywhere, since quiet doesn’t exist in my world. I have turned to kirtan chanting to settle my mind and disrupt my ego’s racing thought patterns. It works well most of the time, but I still try to sit silently (but not in silence), especially with the workbook exercises.

Continue reading “AYoMW: May 4, 2020 — Quiet? What’s that like?”

Lesson 124: Let me remember I am one with God.

A woman I know who travels a lot has been sheltering-in-place with her partner in their RV since March. She ventured out recently for supplies and was accosted by a man in a parking lot who pointed to her out-of-state plates and demanded to know why she was traveling during this time of pandemic.

The man, she noted, was not wearing a mask or any other protective gear, but did remain more than six feet away from her. She did not reply to the man (what good would an explanation do, anyway) and got into her car to avoid a confrontation. Once safely inside her car, she says she looked at him and thought “man who is scared, expressing himself.” Then, she thought to herself, “love one another.”

She waved at the man as she left the parking lot, giving us a case study on how to apply today’s lesson. Not only did she remember she was one with God, but saw the enraged man in the parking lot as who he was as well – a frightened body calling for love.

Continue reading “AYoMW: May 3, 2020 — Bumping into God in a parking lot”

Lesson 123: I thank my Father for his gifts to me.

There are so many things I want to change about myself. Certainly, I’d like to be taller and better looking, but generally, I stick to the things I can change about myself – my temper, my tendency to constantly self-criticize, my weight … the list is pretty much endless. As soon as I think I’ve got one thing changed for the better, a whole litter of new flaws pop up to take its place.

The line in today’s lesson that jumped out at me was this one:

“Give thanks … that you are changeless, for the Son He loves is changeless as Himself.”

Changeless? This lesson tells me I don’t have to change anything about myself – my true, divine Self, that is. I am already perfect, already innocent, already centered in the truth of my true Being. Nothing needs to be done or changed because nothing is ever amiss.

Continue reading “AYoMW: May 2, 2020 — Don’t go changin’ …”

Lesson 122: Forgiveness offers everything I want.

Marketers are masters of convincing us that their latest product or service is provides us with everything we’ll ever need. But wait … there’s more! Whatever they’re hawking also provides us with everything we’ve ever wanted or desired as well!

Want to be taller, better looking, attract the perfect mate, attract all the money, power and parking spots you desire? This product or service delivers! Act now, and they’ll double the offer – just pay a separate shipping and handling fee!

We fall for it every time. I ordered a guitar course just last night because the freebie was so good. Now, I’m wondering when I’ll have time to eek out even the most basic benefit for my money. There is, however, a money-back guarantee … if I can locate that small print ever again …

So, you can excuse me if I’m a little skeptical of anything – even a spiritual book – offering me one thing that will fulfill all my needs, hopes, wants and desires. Especially when that one thing is this: forgiveness.

Oh, my ego’s sides hurt from laughing for the past 30 minutes at that one.

Continue reading “AYoMW: May 1, 2020 — Let’s make a deal …”

Lesson 121: Forgiveness is the key to happiness.

Who am I without my grievances? I used to make a pretty good living writing for a blog about the intersection between religion and politics. One of my fellow writers questioned if I was really human because I could spit out scathing opinion articles in the blink of an eye. I knew who the enemies were, where the bodies were buried, and how to cover you in so many logical arguments it would leave you sputtering.

A Course in Miracles ruined all of that.

Now, I find it hard to form a cogent political and religious argument. It’s not that I can’t. Given the time and effort, I certainly could recapture my arguing glory days, but, now, I simply don’t want to. What did all of my previous arguing do for me, other than earn some money to pay bills? I mean, that was great, but it’s not like my breathless pixelated creations really changed anything. The snarky writing and praise from those who agreed with me felt good and all, but, really, was that truly who I am? After a while, it just became too painful to continue. It really wasn’t me – not as the Course was describing the real me, anyway.

This lesson describes the false self – the ego – and how it perceives the world. The ego is the “unforgiving mind” that sees only the sins of others. It is “full of fear, and offers love no room to be itself,” this lesson says. It is sad, full of doubt, angry and chooses to live in misery.

Continue reading “AYoMW: April 30, 2020 — A Course in Miracles ruined my life. Thank you!”

Lesson 120: Review of
Lesson 109: I rest in God, and
Lesson 110: I am as God created me.

I need a vacation. It’s not like I can go anywhere, though. I can’t rent a cabin in the woods, or even take a day-trip to a brewery I haven’t tried yet, let alone jet off to some far-flung place on the map. In this time of pandemic, a change of scenery outside of my own living room and neighborhood is pretty much off limits.

But, I still need a vacation. I need a chance to rest – a chance to not be responsible for anything or anyone other than my personal needs and my pets. No deadlines, no pressure, no expectation from anyone else. I really feel the need to lay on the couch and stare at the ceiling for a week.

Even then, I doubt I’ll feel rested and refreshed and ready to dive back into the work that will inevitably pile up. Vacations in this bodily world are one of the biggest illusions – the idea that we can even “get away from it all” is pretty funny once you think about it. We seek to escape this dream by creating a different dream in a different location.

It’s exhausting.

Continue reading “AYoMW: April 29, 2020 — I need a vacation”