A Year of Miracle Writing: Jan. 1, 2020 — The meaning of everything and nothing

Lesson 1: Nothing I see in this room means anything.

Everything in this room has meaning for me. From the pens I use, to the chair I sit in, to the paintings on the wall, to the cat perched on my desk looking out my window. They all have memories, emotions, thoughts and concerns attached to them.

What if I can no longer find my favorite pens?

What if this chair becomes more a nuisance than a comfort?

How could I replace some of the precious original artwork on my wall if something bad were to happen and destroy them?

And my cat, my precious cat … I don’t even want to think of the impermanence of my all of my furry babies.

How can they not mean anything, when in my bodily reality they mean everything? They give me comfort, they give me joy, they give me a reason to get my butt out of bed in the morning and do this thing called life. How can I give up their meaning to me?

Of course, everything in this room has no meaning – not above what I’ve given any of it. The things in my room mean nothing to a stranger who walks in. They don’t know the story of my love for pens, my quest for a comfy chair, the artists who created the beauty around me … and the cat – the story of how he – and all the others – came into my life.

We are meaning-making creatures. That stranger in my room has no attachment to my things, but they have plenty to their own. There is a room in their world where every thing – every being – has meaning.

So, what is the Course asking us to do in this first lesson of the year? Be aware of our meaning-making ego and its penchant for labeling, categorizing, valuing and devaluing everything around it. Be aware of how much we have allowed judgment to control us. Just by looking at the pens on my desk, I have a favorite – the one with the right balance, the right weight and the perfect smoothness of its writing. I have a favorite chair, a favorite piece of artwork, and even though I don’t tell them – there are favorites among the furry beings that roam my rooms.

The Course, of course, isn’t asking us to give up the things we love – but to put them into perspective. A miracle, of course, is simply a change in perspective and all of the lessons throughout the year are merely offering us an opportunity to see the world anew – to get our thinking right about the world and why we are here in it.

If I am holding preconceived notions about pens, chairs, paintings and even my furry family, then I am closed off to receiving miracles. I have already decided what things mean – I have already given a purpose and role to everything in my world. When I am sure what something means, I am not open to reinterpretation – a change in perspective.

This is the key then – to see the world, not through the ego’s eyes of set-in-concrete categories and meanings – but through the spirit’s eyes of infinity. We must be able to see through even the smallest thing we have given meaning to if we hope to ever see through the guilt, and evil intention, we perceive in the people that we see around us. If I can judge a pen harshly for its appearance and performance, how easy will it be for me to judge a person based on the same criteria?

Quite easy, of course. We do it all the time … in traffic, in the line at the grocery store, watching television, in our offices and homes. We are categorizing and judging machines – unconsciously giving meaning to every moment, person or thing that passes before us.

If we can train our mind to remember that nothing we see in this room or out in this world has any meaning inherent within themselves then we can begin to see those things more deeply – to question our long-held beliefs and perceptions about them.

I am also reading Daniel Ladinsky’s, A Year with Hafiz, this year and his poem for January 1 reminds us that we are “a hole in the flute that the Christ’s breath moves through – listen to this music.”

Hafiz reminds us that Christ is in, through and around it all – in “every dancer, their foot I know and lift. And every brush and hand, well, that is me too, who caresses any canvas or cheek.

“We are a hole in a flute, a moment in space, that the Christ’s body can move through and sway – all forms – in an exquisite dance – as the wind in a forest.”

This is what lesson one invites us to learn – we are not the source; we are the channel. Everything around us is the Divine – playing out the notes of its life through us, teaching us what we need to know to realize our higher divine Self in every moment.

“How did I become all these things, and beyond all things?” Hafiz asks.

“It was my destiny, as it is yours.”

Nothing in this world means anything – because it is already the meaning of everything – divine and part of the oneness of it all – which includes you and me.

AYoMW: Jan. 13, 2020 — Who’s afraid of a meaningless world?

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Lesson 13: A meaningless world engenders fear.

I recall reading, many years ago, some advice from a Buddhist teacher on developing the skill of detachment. They recommended that whenever you were watching television to intentionally turn off the show before the ending and go do something else. This interrupted our need for a sense of closure and, he said, could help you become detached to the outcome of events in your own life.

It never worked for me. I like closure. I like to know the end of the story. Detachment may be something worth developing, but not around my TV shows.

Trying to practice detachment in this way triggered my FOMO, or my fear of missing out. I could not let go of my attachment to knowing, as Paul Harvey used to say, “the rest of the story.”

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AYoMW: Jan. 12, 2020 — Seeing is believing?

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Lesson 12: I am upset because I see a meaningless world.

Today’s lesson instructs us to look at the world around us and say: “I think I see a fearful world, a dangerous world, a hostile world, a sad world, a wicked world, a crazy world …”

All we have to do is turn on the news and all those thoughts will be confirmed. Wars, rumors of wars, famine, greed, hostility, division – it’s a cornucopia of insanity out there right now. It, of course, always has been. We’ve created this insane world together – joining our fearful egos in a horror show we call “life.”

Today’s lesson is the first step to correcting that vision and becoming a clear channel for God to begin to create “the good, the beautiful and the holy,” through us. We believe, this lesson says, that we’re upset because the world is frightening, sad, violent or insane. In reality, the world is meaningless. We’re the ones who struggle with fear, sadness, violence and insanity.

We have yet to see through the illusions of all of these generators of fear within our own heart and mind, and so we project all of that onto the blank screen that is the true Reality of the world. We are the artists of our own paintings – the screenwriters of our own play of life – and we misuse our creativity and imagination to build fearful and crazy worlds. That’s because we’ve given the pen and brush of creation over to our ego – which loves to paint pictures of chaos, competition and separation.

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AYoMW: Jan. 11, 2020 — What’s it all mean, anyway?

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Lesson 11: My meaningless thoughts are showing me a meaningless world.

I guess I can understand when the critics of A Course in Miracles call it “spiritual bypass.” On the surface, it would appear that the Course is teaching an exquisite kind of apathy. Our thoughts have no meaning, the world isn’t real and even if it were it’s all meaningless anyway. At some point, if you just did a surface reading of the Course, I suppose you could dismiss it as happy-slappy just think positive thoughts and gaze at your navel kind of spirituality.

That was the thought that I had, even in my first year of reading the text and doing the workbook. It all sort of felt like a course that encouraged you to retreat from the world, because it’s all an illusion anyway, right?

That kind of thinking misses the entire point. If you stop at Lesson 11 because you’re convinced the Course is bullshit, the Course would be fine with that. There are many other ways of thinking and believing in the world that can bring enlightenment. Truth is truth, no matter where you encounter it.

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AYoMW: Jan. 10, 2020 — Out, out damn thought!

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Lesson 10: My thoughts do not mean anything.

My thoughts have been torturing me these past few days. They keep arising and telling me what I should have done, what I should have said, how I should have acted, and, for the most part, are berating me about how poorly I am doing at this whole spiritual growth thing.

My first year doing the workbook, this lesson in particular produced angry thoughts. “What do you mean my thoughts don’t mean anything? They mean everything! I mean thoughts become things, right? So, they must have meaning!”

Yes, indeed, thoughts do become things, which makes this lesson pretty pivotal in the whole journey through the Course. If our thoughts become things, then ought we not try to exert some control over those thoughts – or at least seek to be detached from them so we can discern between right and wrong thinking?

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AYoMW: Jan. 9, 2020 — Not understanding is the beginning of understanding

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Lesson 9: I see nothing as it is now.

I heard a recent interview with A Course in Miracles teacher and author Marianne Williamson where she reiterated that the Course is not a religion. It has no dogma, no creeds, no real theology and doesn’t demand that you believe in anything in particular, except, perhaps a higher power – whether you call that God or the Flying Spaghetti Monster. One of the most profound mischaracterizations of the Course is that it is some woo-woo, New Age, feel good religion where you deny reality and think happy thoughts all day long, every day for the rest of your life.

Nothing could be further from the truth. I have discovered, in the few years that I have done the workbook and read through the text, that the Course is the most challenging spiritual mind training I have ever undertaken.

I can compare it, somewhat, to my experience in seminary. I had been told, before entering my master’s program, that seminary often makes atheists out of otherwise religious people – and I experienced this phenomenon from some of my classmates who became wildly disillusioned with their faith because seminary taught them things that the church simply refuses to teach its members. Mainly because such knowledge – such understanding – requires us first to let go of what we think we already know, and that can be dangerous to church growth.

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AYoMW: Jan. 8, 2020 — Can’t get you out of my mind …

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Lesson 8: My mind is preoccupied with past thoughts.

I’m finding it difficult to start today’s reflection, mainly because I’m too busy thinking about yesterday – the pleasant memories along with those that upset my peace of mind. I’m thinking about the things I enjoyed doing as well as the things I didn’t get done, the things I should have said, the places I could have gone, the people I could have connected with, but didn’t.

Our egos love to help us misconstrue and misuse time. “The mind’s preoccupation with the past is the cause of the misconception about time from which your seeing suffers. Your mind cannot grasp the present, which is the only time there is,” reads today’s lesson.

Because our mind is incapable of grasping the present, we rely on the past to keep us occupied – or on the future, dreaming of a better moment than this one somewhere down the road. For all my preoccupation about things left unsaid or undone yesterday, I can’t change one moment of my past – and the Course tells me that continuing to dwelling on past events and feelings right does me no good, and prevents a miracle from entering my reality.

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